Unadilla, NY (WBNG Binghamton) Nineteen years ago this week, retired trooper Mike Parisian lost his brother. And the time that's passed is a blink and an eternity. Every day there's pain for Parisian. The duration may change, but it never wanes completely.
"I say 19 years and it actually sets me back because it seems at times like it's 19 days, and other times where it's 190 years," Parisian said.
New York State Trooper Rick Parisian was killed in the line of duty on May 20, 1994.
"Lost my best friend, brother, and partner," Mike Parisian said. "We worked together and basically lived together, spent a lot of time together."
State Police Troop C in Sidney held a special service Thursday for family and friends of fallen heroes, just as they do each year around Memorial Day to honor persistent memories and to acknowledge time's firm grip on pain.
Rick's wife, Debra, comes to this memorial service every year. She says it's the only time she sees her husband's co-workers show emotion.
"It's not just the immediate family that feels the loss on a day-to-day basis," Debra Parisian said. "It's the whole state police family."
A Trooper family always sticks together, mourners said Thursday.
"Those are not shallow or hallow words," said Commander Kevin Molinari, who also announced his retirement after 34 years of service. "When we say to the families of our fallen members that you are now part of the long grey line, forever."
Even though coming to this memorial every year is difficult, Parisian says a certain melody brings on the memories.
"Amazing Grace." Parisian said. "He was always honored by that song before he was killed and then the impact that walking into the church in his funeral, the bagpipers playing that, it still hits my heart very hard."
The music brings him joy, and so does seeing the community honor their fallen heroes.
"You could tell they had heart behind it," Parisian said. "Which touched my heart."
The last trooper in Troop C to die in the line of duty was Jill Mattice in January of 2010. She was the first female New York State trooper to be killed in the line of duty.